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  • The Bible Interconnects Part 2: Jesus the Lamb of God

    Genesis 22:8
    “8 Abraham answered, “God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.” And the two of them went on together.”

    Genesis 22:13-14
    “13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son. 14 So Abraham called that place The Lord Will Provide. And to this day it is said, “On the mountain of the Lord it will be provided.”

    Exodus 12:5 NKJV
    “5 Your lamb shall be without blemish, a male of the first year. You may take it from the sheep or from the goats.”

    Isaiah 53:7 NKJV
    “7 He was oppressed and He was afflicted,
    Yet He opened not His mouth;
    He was led as a lamb to the slaughter,
    And as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
    So He opened not His mouth.”

    John 1:29 NKJV
    “29 The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him, and said, “Behold! The Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world!”

    1 Peter 1:18-19 NKJV
    “18 knowing that you were not redeemed with corruptible things, like silver or gold, from your aimless conduct received by tradition from your fathers, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot.”

    Continuing with Genesis 22 when God provided a ram as a sacrifice for Abraham in place of Isaac. I spoke previously about the symbolism in Genesis 22 that connects to Romans 6:23, Matthew 27:29, and John 3:16. In that article I referenced that Jesus was referred to as a lamb more than once in Scripture. So in this article I will talk about how Genesis 22 connects to four more verses in Scripture.

    First we have to establish what was considered an acceptable sacrifice to God. We see in Exodus 12:5 that one of the requirements for a sacrifice to be acceptable to God is that it had to be without blemish. This is why God had to send Jesus because anything less than perfection would not work. This also backs up my point in my previous article that God’s intention was never for Abraham to sacrifice Isaac. Isaac was imperfect and therefore would not have been acceptable. So God had to provide a perfect sacrifice. Remember Genesis 22 connects to a lot of Scripture in the Bible both in the Old Testament and the New Testament.

    In Genesis 22:13-14 it says Abraham called the place “The Lord will provide.” Which is future tense not past tense. You would think that Abraham would have called the place “The Lord provided”, “The Lord provides.”, or “The Lord has provided.” given that God provided him a ram but he didn’t. Abraham called the place “The Lord will provide.” The fact that this is future tense shows us that God’s provision was coming. Meaning that one day God would provide by sending Jesus to die on the cross for our sins taking our place and bearing our punishment. Exodus 12:5 describes that the sacrifice must be without blemish and male. Jesus being the Son of God made him both. In the previous article I mentioned that Jesus is referred to as a lamb multiple times in Scripture and we see this in Isaiah 53:7 which says “He was led as a lamb to the slaughter.” it also says “as a sheep before its shearers is silent”. In John 1:29 and in 1 Peter 1:18-19 as well as Revelation 13:8 Jesus is referred to as a lamb.

    In my previous article I spoke about the ram God provided to Abraham to take the place of his son Isaac and how the ram was symbolic that God was going to send Jesus. I wrote this article more so to back up the last one to show that Scripture all interconnects as well as to point out some of the symbolism. So we see that Genesis 22 connects to: Romans 6:23, Matthew 27:29, John 3:16, Exodus 12:5, Isaiah 53:7, 1 Peter 1:18-19, and Revelation 13:8.


  • The Bible Interconnects Part 1: The Ram

    Genesis 22:13 NKJV
    “13 Then Abraham lifted his eyes and looked, and there behind him was a ram caught in a thicket by its horns. So Abraham went and took the ram, and offered it up for a burnt offering instead of his son.”

    Romans 6:23 NKJV
    “23 For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.”

    Matthew 27:29 NKJV
    “29 When they had twisted a crown of thorns, they put it on His head, and a reed in His right hand. And they bowed the knee before Him and mocked Him, saying, “Hail, King of the Jews!”

    John 3:16 KJV
    “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

    I was thinking about this and wanted to write down a few quick notes to share. Everything in the Bible interconnects. From the Old Testament to the New Testament everything is connected. If you want to understand the Old Testament you have to read the New Testament and vice versa. So above I have listed four verses one from the Old Testament and three from the New. How do these verses connect? This is what I have learned.

    In Genesis Abraham is instructed to sacrifice his son Isaac. So Abraham builds an altar to do as the Lord instructed. To be clear the intention by God was never to have Isaac sacrificed (this is important and I can’t stress it enough). In Genesis it says when Abraham was going to sacrifice his son the Angel of the Lord stopped him and behind Abraham was a ram whose horns were stuck in a thicket. Abraham then sacrificed the ram that God had provided to him to take the place of his son Isaac.

    Now there are a few things in this verse in Genesis. The first is the detail that it says it was a ram, a ram is a male sheep (this is important), and it’s horns or it’s head was stuck in a thicket (many thickets include shrubs that have thorns. This is also an important detail), lastly God provides a sacrifice to take the place of Isaac.
    Why did God provide a ram? There are a lot of reasons God did this but I’m trying to keep this as short as I can so I will only mention one of the reasons. God provided a ram so that Isaac could live, so that he would not receive a penalty of death. This verse in Genesis was symbolic that God was going to send Jesus.

    Now I am going to jump to Romans 6:23 where it says that the wages of sin or the penalty of sin is death but through Jesus we are given eternal life. Then we move to John 3:16 which tells us that God loved the world so much that He gave His son so that anyone who believes in Jesus Christ would not perish (or receive the penalty of death) but have everlasting life. Now remember that ram we talked about in Genesis? Here is the link Matthew 27:29 tells us that a crown of thorns was placed on Jesus’ head.

    The important details I mentioned earlier being that a ram is a male sheep, it’s horns or head was caught in a thicket, God provided a sacrifice, the ram took the place of Abraham’s son. So here is the parallel: Jesus is the son of God, who God sent as a sacrifice of atonement for our sins so that we would not perish (Jesus is referred to as a lamb multiple times in Scripture), a crown of thorns was placed on Jesus’ head just as the rams head was caught in Genesis. God provided a sacrifice for our sins by sending Jesus to take our place so that we can live.

    Those are just four verses that all interconnect. The Bible is filled with Scriptures that intertwine and connect to one another. I am always fascinated by the symbolism in Scripture and love to study to have a better understanding. I hope to write a few more articles like this one in the future.

    (The thorns are also symbolic but I’ll write about that in another article.)


  • Time

    Time, it is one of the grandest gifts we are given and yet so often we are the poorest of stewards of it. We often let it slip through our hands not realizing in the moment what we have lost. We don’t always cherish it as we should. Taking every second for granted until one day we look back at the grand total of how we spent this gift of time and we realize it could have been used more wisely. For some it is used to the fullest while others it is not. In times of reflection it can be our greatest joy and also our greatest sorrow. The moments we seized and the moments we missed, the time we ignored and the time we payed close attention to. How much time do we waste is really the question we must ask ourselves. How would we spend our time if we actually knew how much we have on this earth? If time is not invested it can not make a difference, in our lives, and in the lives of others. This year I want to cherish this gift I have been given, this gift of time. I want to cherish every second, every moment, and every person I spend it with. May I never take it for granted, may I never waste it. And one day when my time is up I hope that I am remembered as someone who used my time to the fullest, who used my time to help other people, to make a difference, to show people love and I hope that my invested time helps others. I spent a lot of time on social media in 2020 and in some ways it was good while in others it was bad. I have been off of social media for over two weeks and in that time I found myself reading more books, I spent more time praying, I was more attentive at work, I was able to sort through things and put things in perspective as well as give my family more focused attention. I was getting better sleep, I woke up earlier in the morning and was able to read my Bible while I had my coffee before work, I enjoyed alone time and felt more peaceful. I started thinking about things I wanted to do and try, I worked on goals and found better things to do with my time, I also remembered artists I hadn’t listened to in years and I listened to them, I had a lot of fun. I also noticed that many of the things I felt insecure about myself started to not be so loud. It was really great. I feel so refreshed from my decision to leave social media for the time I did. In 2021 I want to limit my time on social media. I want to live in the present and enjoy each moment as it comes because time is a gift from God and I don’t want to waste this precious gift He has given me.❤️



  • The Bible, God, and Satan

    Just some of my more recent notes. It’s not a completed writing but it’s a start. The breakdown is a bit more complicated than this because there is a lot of ground work I have based this off of but I’ve narrowed it down to something this short and can hopefully fill in the gaps later on with second and third parts.

    In the Bible it talks about God and it talks about Satan. Two beings in a battle for the souls of man. As people the Bible talks about the importance of being aware of the enemy and his tactics.
    A few verses that come to mind are the following:
    In Genesis 3:1 it says “Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field which the LORD God had made. And he said to the woman, “Has God indeed said, ‘You shall not eat of every tree of the garden’?”

    In 1 Peter 5:8 it says “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.”

    And in Luke 22:31 it says “And the Lord said, “Simon, Simon! Behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat.”

    Here are a few things I have learned about Satan from Scripture.
    The first thing I learned is that Satan is crafty but also stupid. Why do I say that? Here is why: Satan was smart enough to deceive man to fall but dumb enough to get kicked out of heaven. Satan knows more than man, he is smarter, more cunning, and more crafty than man. So man can easily fall prey to him. However Satan does not know more than God, he is not smarter than God.

    The second thing is that Satan can not defeat God. Why is that? We have an enemy who knows God but that does not know what God knows. Satan is not all knowing and he is not all powerful therefore matched against God he will always lose. Satan lives in eternal judgement under the law (referenced in the Old Testament) and eternal separation from God therefore there is no redemption for him.

    There is however redemption and salvation for man through Jesus Christ. If we are in Christ there is protection from our enemy there. That doesn’t mean that everything is perfect and nothing ever goes wrong but it does mean that even when we go through the bad times God will bring us through the other side. Where does man receive wisdom in this battle for souls? Through the Word of God and through the Holy Spirit. Understanding who God is and then understanding who the enemy is changes everything for the follower of Jesus Christ.

    The Bible is referred to as a sword on numerous occasions in Scripture.
    In Hebrews 4:12 it says: “For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.”

    and in Ephesians 6 we see the armor of God referenced.

    “10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
    18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.”

    The armor of God represents what we need in the battle for our soul against a ruthless enemy. You see the fruit on the tree in the garden looked good. In Genesis it describes it as “pleasing to the eye.” What looks good for us can be deceiving. In the end what looked good and what tasted good brought death for all of mankind. Adam and Eve deterred from the truth that they were given by God: “If you eat the fruit of this tree you will surely die.” Because they did not stick to God’s Word they made a huge mess. We must not kid ourselves, we are no different from Adam and Eve. We can and will fall into messes when we walk away from the Words God has given us. Our biggest defense against Satan is the Word of God. There is no truth apart from it, only death, only pain, only suffering. Adam and Eve didn’t die right away. It was a long and slow decline but they did as God told them would happen died. We do not walk away from God’s Words because that is where we lose every time. It’s time we stop compromising the living Word of God to appease people. The Bible is as God wrote it to be to transform lives and save Souls and protect them from a wicked enemy. When we change it we use the tactic Satan used in the garden. We must speak Truth if we are to bring people to Jesus Christ and save them from death. If we truly love people we will want for them to truly know and love God and be set free. Speak the living Word of God.



  • The Bible and Science: Science Nerd Alert

    When I was in school my favorite subjects were Bible, Science, and History. It is often said that the three negate one another however I have found that to be far from the truth.

    (You’ll have to bear with me for this one.)
    When I was in school we had to do science experiments. We learned early on that in a science experiment you need a constant and variables. Without a constant the experiment is considered an inconclusive or failed experiment. One year I chose to do a project on acids and bases. Using boiled red cabbage water (which is purple) as an indicator I was able to test the acidity of various fruits. By placing each fruit into the water I could tell the acidity levels of each one. A lemon turned the water red indicating that it was highly acidic the other end of the spectrum was the banana which did not change the water at all indicating there was little to no acidity in a banana. My constant showed me the true nature of all of my variables.

    Now moving on to the Bible. The Bible talks a lot about fruit. In Galatians 5:22-23 it talks about the fruits of the Spirit. In Matthew 7:17-18 Jesus talks about a good tree vs a bad tree the type of fruit it produces. The fruits of our decisions can positively or negatively affect our lives and the people around us.
    In my life the Bible has always been my constant. The indicator that tells me what is good for me vs what is bad for me. By testing my own ideas, my own opinions, my own life choices with it I have been able to determine that which is good for me and that which is bad.

    The Bible also talks about that which we reap we will also sow. I often ask myself when making a decision:
    “Will this decision only affect me?” “If not how can it negatively or positively affect the people around me?” “Is it worth it?” “What does the Bible say about it?” In Proverbs we are given many verses that explain the outcome of various actions.

    When held against the choices we make (the fruit or the variables) what does the indicator (the Bible or the constant) say? I have used this method over and over in my life. I wish I could say I’ve made the best decisions every single time sadly I can not. I have made poor decisions but not without an understanding of the consequences of my actions and the outcomes were not good. Ultimately what I’m saying is as far as science experiments go I have learned that the Bible is my life’s constant and the outcome when I headed it’s warnings were good and when I chose to ignore them were not. With every decision we make we are accountable not only to ourselves but to the people that surround us. Will the fruit of those decisions be good and life giving? Or will they be bad and cause pain and suffering? The choice is up to us really.


  • God Will Sustain Us

    I’ve always really loved The Serenity Prayer. I’ve posted about it on a few occasions. For many people it is most associated with AA and rehabilitation. I’ve never struggled with addiction but I have struggled with the ups and downs of life as I know we all have. For me The Serenity Prayer has always been a comfort, a reminder of hope, and of courage. In my life I have experienced so many different things. In high school I lost a lot of people. I attended more funerals in four years than most people attend in 10.

    It was difficult but in that time I looked to God for strength. When I was 15 just a few weeks before my 16th birthday my great grandmother suffered a stroke that left the doctors saying that she was going to die and they projected that she would pass away on Sept. 17th. September 17th is my birthday. While other girls plan for months to throw an obnoxiously large sweet 16 party where they are the center of attention, I was sitting there knowing that my great grandmother, the matriarch of my family was going to die. It was one of the tragedies that I experienced in that time.

    It was a very difficult time for me but I always trusted that God would get me through that time and He did. I have found that it is in times of difficulty and uncertainty that our eyes are often opened to the things that matter the most. For my 16th birthday I wasn’t planning a party, I was visiting my great grandmother as much as I could before she passed away. Trials often show us where our priorities lie as opposed to where they should lie. Prayer was something that always meant a lot to me. In that time I sought God and I spent a lot of time in prayer. God has always been a constant for me in a life of variables. I have learned that we can plan all we want but sometimes we can’t control the outside circumstances of our lives.

    I have found that no matter how hard things get God has always sustained me, He has always given me hope, and He has always brought me through to the other side. It may not have always looked like I thought it should or would but He always got me through in the end. In my life the Serenity Prayer has always reminded me that no matter how uncertain life is that I know which rock I stand on and He is my solid ground. It has continued to remind me of the hope I have in Jesus Christ.
    I can not always control the circumstances that surround me but I can trust that God will be with me every step of the way and no matter what happens He will bring me through to the other side. Anyone who knows me knows that I have a Serenity Prayer necklace that I wear most of the time as a reminder that God is with me throughout the day no matter what happens. God will bring me peace in the storm just as He has always done.

    I don’t know what anyone else’s story entails I can only share my own. I do pray that in a time of uncertainty that I can offer the Hope that only comes from Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour.




  • 2020 and 10 Years Time

    Coming into 2020 I spent a lot of time reflecting on the last 10 years of my life. I remembered that when I was 18 years old I had my life planned out. I would meet my future husband, I would be married by 23, I would have my own home, I would have my first child by 25 (of which I would have 3), and I would have the career of my choosing (which at the time (18) was a writer, although in high school I had wanted to be a voice actor and later a chef). However in the last ten years I have achieved none of that. I am as single as it gets, I do not have my own home (I live at home with my parents), I have no children, I am not a professional writer/author (I also never became a chef or got into voice acting)

    I guess in comparison of what I had expected to be as opposed to what is, it appears as though I failed. That however is far from the truth. In ten years I worked retail which opened the door for me to become a csr/mtm of a bank, I became an Aunt and have shared so many fun times with my now 10 year old niece, I started a women’s ministry page called Woman of God (in which I have written many articles) I’ve had opportunities to travel to places like New York to see a Broadway show and Radio City Music Hall for a concert, Seattle Washington for Comic Con as well as go to Longwood Gardens, I’ve met a lot of people (including Tom Hiddleston, Adam Young, Charlie Cox, and Hunter Hayes), I’ve tried new things such as archery and axe throwing, I learned that I could make the people closest to me laugh by doing impressions of movie characters, and I could make great memories with family cooking dinners. In 10 years I didn’t achieve the things I thought I would have when I was 18 years old, instead my life thus far has turned out completely different than I expected it would by 28. But in that I achieved dreams I didn’t know existed and I grew as a person and because of that I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I guess it’s true in the words of John Lennon “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.”





  • 27 and Living the Dream

    I had mentioned a little bit ago that I was taking time to pray and just spend with God and that I would write about that soon. I took a little bit more time because I really wanted to know what God was doing in my life. In two days I will be 27 years old, in a previous post I had mentioned how when I was 16 I had my whole life planned out. I’d meet Mr. Right in high school, we’d be married by 23, live across the street from my parents, and my husband and I would have a dog and three kids. I had everything planned. At 16 years old I could have never imagined that at 27 none of those plans would have happened. Over the last month I’ve been seeking God, venting my disappointments of broken dreams and years of plans that didn’t happen. I spent a good two weeks mourning the ‘wants’ in my life, the could have beens, should have beens, that never became a reality. I cried and I prayed conveying my frustrations and my hurts. There were times I panicked in the process of conveying my disappointments thinking of how I wanted 3 children and how I wanted my life to look and that these things probably wouldn’t happen now because even if I met someone tomorrow I probably wouldn’t be married until I was 30 and the whole timing is just so messed up. It was in that time I realized I’ve always said I trusted God with this area of my life but He has in the last month shown me just how much I didn’t. I think we all have that thing in our lives that we say we trust God with but just as soon as we place it in His hands we take it back again. I took awhile to start this article because I wanted to see what God was trying to show me before talking about it. The beginning stages of allowing God into this area of my life was difficult but growth always is, healing always is a process.

    In the time I took, God and I had a lot of heart to hearts. After the venting and the mourning came the surrendering. Self is a long road that often takes us along time to get to the end of but when we do God always knows what to say. The more I told God about the things that bothered me, the things that didn’t work out or happen the more He started to show me myself. God started to show me the things in myself that needed to change. The places I went wrong, the weaknesses, the character flaws, the why things didn’t happen when I thought they should have, He showed me the past and the present. I started to realize that He knew the whole time what was best and my attempts to control were actually holding me back not advancing me in His plan for my life. The need to control was really a lack of trust and that wasn’t going to work. God showed me in a time of prayer that He keeps His promises and that I could trust that. God showed me that the only thing I can control is the choices I make.
    I could either surrender to His will and trust His plan or I could try to continue to control everything and try to make things go my way but would ultimately fail in myself. God showed me that I can not plan what I don’t know, that only He knows what happens next in my life. He has given me small steps to take that will bring me to the destination He has that I honestly have no clue what it is. While I am somewhat nervous about where He is leading me He is reminding me each day that Faith isn’t about seeing but about trusting Him and being certain of what I can’t see. I can’t see but God can and I’ve learned that I can either be obedient and receive what He has for me or I can do things my way. Unfortunately my way won’t get me anywhere. So I am surrendering to what God wants for my life, even if it doesn’t look anything like I imagined.

    God has shown me that maybe the things I thought I always wanted are not really what I want. God is showing me that maybe I wanted those things the way I wanted them and when I wanted them only because I don’t have the sight to see what He has in store. That maybe just maybe I’m not thinking big enough. Not because a family and children at 23 is not a big enough ambition but because what God has planned is always better than what we plan for ourselves. Whether His plan is a family, or missions, or a single life. Whatever the plan I’m ready to trust Him and to move forward. I want to push more into ministry and work to help others. Particularly single people, because God has shown me in the last month that a single life can be amazing if we let Him lead. So yes I will be 27 years old in two days, I am not married, not even close. By 16 year old me’s standards I have failed but I have learned that I have not failed by God’s and so God helped me put 16 year old me’s dreams to rest so that 27 year old me can dream new dreams and move forward and do His will in this season.

    I am very grateful for God’s mercy and for His patience and for His goodness. I am seeing more clearly and growing more and more each day. With God I know my future is going to be a good one even if it doesn’t look the way I thought it should. I am counting my blessings and growing in Him and seeing things differently than I did before. I’m learning to love a single life to the fullest and how to live the life God has for me and it is truly amazing and better than I imagined for myself.

    What is the thing in your life that you’ve been trying to control? What are some of the dreams you’ve had that didn’t happen in the time frame you thought they should have? What are some disappointments and fears you struggle with? If you are in a season similar to mine I encourage you to take time with God and seek His will. God knows what is best for you and He will guide you if you ask a Him to. The Bible says that if we seek Him with all our hearts we will find Him. Maybe it’s time to take some time to have a heart to heart with God. It’s the only way to find fulfillment and to see clearly. God’s will for your life is amazing and you can trust that He knows what is best.



  • Living A Chaste Life

    In today’s society a person is looked down upon for waiting for their future spouse. Choosing to live a chaste life is looked at as a joke and as a lifestyle for stuck up snobs who think they’re better than everyone. On the contrary it is not about being better. Living a chaste life does not make anyone better than anyone else but instead it is choosing better for yourself and for your future spouse. I think choosing to wait for marriage for your future spouse is one of the most romantic things I think a person can do. To love your future spouse so much that you put them first in your decisions before you ever even knew them. That you chose them even before you knew them. I think as young people and even older people it is important to remember why you chose to wait for your spouse. Some days it may be harder than others but in the end it is worth it. God has a greater plan for you than you can imagine. Trust that He knows what He is doing. Don’t give up, don’t give in and continue to ask God for strength to continue to put your future spouse first, even if you don’t know them yet. Do not let society’s lust for promiscuity to cause you to walk away. If you are discouraged in this season of waiting ask God to help you and He will give you strength.

    Galatians 6:9-10 (KJV)
    “9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.”


  • What I Imagined

    I remember when I was younger I knew exactly how my life was going to go. I was going to meet my future husband some time in high school, we’d be married by 23, have children by 25, I’d be a stay at home mom, and my husband and I would live across the street from my parents in a two story house with a nice yard and a dog. Yup, when I looked at my life in the future this is what it was going to look like. However I learned that life doesn’t always go the way we plan. When I was 13 I made a purity promise to wait for my husband and at 16 I picked out a purity ring I would wear. I spent a few weeks picking out the ring so I could get it for my 16th birthday.

    At the time while I put a lot of thought into the ring knowing this promise was very important to me, I didn’t think I’d be wearing it passed 23. As I said before I’d be married by 23 of course so the longest I’d be wearing it would be 7 years because who knows I could be married by 20 or even 21. At 16 years old I was told I could date, surely God was going to send me my knight in shining armor soon…however I didn’t end up dating, not just at 16 but years after. I just couldn’t seem to find anyone I could see myself marrying and I didn’t want to date just to date. Not to say I didn’t have crushes, there were guys I liked but the feelings never seemed to be mutual. As 23 approached I realized I would not be getting married by 23 and so I decided I should change my timeline a bit. Instead of being married by 23 I’d be married by 25 and therefore would have children by 27. Surely God would bring someone to me in that time….Lets fast forward a bit. Current day I am still living at home, I am not in a relationship, I am not married, I have no one in my life that I feel I would date and you guessed it… in four months I will be 27 years old.

    My life did not turn out so far anything like my younger self had imagined and while some might think this is a bad thing I have found that as per usual God knew and continues to know what He is doing. In the years that I imagined myself to be married I learned so much about myself and about God. I learned that the guys I thought I wanted to date were in fact not for me. We would have never worked in a relationship or a marriage with who I am today and even who some of them are today. I have grown as a person in so many ways. God has shown me the importance of trusting Him even when we can’t see what’s happening or when things don’t look like we think they should. I learned patience as well as life skills like budgeting and finances. I learned just how long I’m willing to wait for my future husband (as long as it takes) and what type of man I will need him to be so we can have a future together. I learned what type of woman God wants me to be and what I’ll need to be for my future husband. I learned that at 23 I wasn’t ready to be married and still at 25 not ready to be married and a parent. I learned that what we want sometimes and what we need are not always the same thing. I learned that the person God wants us to be to help others is not always what we would have chosen for ourselves but in the long run it is the best thing for ourselves and the people we meet.

    So what does my time of singleness look like? A bit like this….God has shown me the book of Ruth over and over. I’ve read it multiple times over the last year or so. Some of the things He showed me about Ruth was that Ruth wasn’t looking for a husband when she left her home. Ruth was serving God, helping her mother-in-law Naomi, and Ruth was working very hard. What we know of Ruth is that she was faithful, loyal, hard working, diligently serving God. We know that the person she became because of the circumstances in her life was far from the woman she was in Moab and it shaped her into the woman that Boaz would love and need by his side. The Bible says she happened upon a field that belonged to Boaz. She wasn’t looking for a man but for work and her faithfulness to God brought her to the place where she was ready for the blessing He had for her. Ruth’s life didn’t look like she planned I’m sure but it ended up being the best thing for her. I have learned in my time of singleness to trust God, to work hard, to help my family and to seek Him and grow in Him.

    I’ve been blessed in so many other ways over the years. I have been on adventures and grown so much. I have not given up on wanting to be married and have my own family. I pray for my future husband and ask God to guide him in his everyday life without me. Maybe one day God will allow me to happen upon my Boaz’s field maybe there isn’t one for me, I don’t know but what I do know is that God is faithful, His will is best for me, and He has given me a life that is truly blessed regardless of the fact that it looks different than I thought it would. I will not be married by 27 and most likely 28 and that’s ok. His timing is better than mine.

    If you are a younger woman or an older woman and you are waiting for your future husband and you are feeling discouraged that you haven’t met him yet I urge you to pray and seek God. Ask God what it is that He would have you do in this season of singleness. Ask God what His will is for your life and ask Him to help you stay strong in your promise to your future husband. I can’t promise you that God has someone for you and I can’t promise that if He does they will come into your life soon but I can promise you that God knows what He’s doing. God’s will is always better, He loves you and has great things for you. Never forget that.