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  • Ten Years

    My name is Christine, I am 25 years old in a few weeks I will be turning 26 and I am a single woman of God. When I was 16 I made a promise before God and my family to live a chaste life as I waited for my future husband and that I would not date just to date but would date with the intent to marry. I made this promise so that I may live according to God’s will and for the protection of both myself and my future husband. My parents gave me for my 16th birthday a purity ring that I have worn ever since I made my promise.

    As the 10 year anniversary of that promise approaches in the next few weeks I have reflected on what it has meant in my life as well as how different my life could have been had I not made that promise. I personally feel that my promise to God and my future husband has helped me grow as a person as well as kept me from relationships or dating that could have pushed me off course of what God wanted for my life thus far.

    Once in my life I had prayed that God would keep any man who wasn’t meant to be my future husband away from me. I promise you He has kept to that prayer over the years when I was younger and as I got older He gave me the discernment to recognize who was not. I have been asked out on many dates since I made that promise and I have turned down many dates. Not because they were bad men or dangerous in any way but because I knew they were not my future husband.

    I have grown in so many ways as a person and child of God. I have grown in ways I might not have if I had been dating different men or had just been in a relationship in general. I have come to a peace in my singleness and I have found that praying for my future husband while we are a part as well as praying for our future for when we are together has helped me have a peace about who I am and where God has me in my life right now. I believe prayer is powerful and I pray for him, that he becomes all that God created him to be. I wouldn’t change a thing about where I am right now. I have found over and over again fulfillment in serving God, it is what I live for and it brings me joy and hope and happiness like no other. I have found a joy in my singleness and all that I have been able to do because of it.

    Singleness is a blessing and I think people need to start teaching it as one. To all my single sisters in Christ: you have a great gift. Being single gives you an opportunity to serve others, to grow in God, to accomplish goals and make dreams come true. You have family and friends who love you and a God who made your life with purpose. Don’t settle for anything less than God’s best for you. You are worth so much more than you could ever imagine. Allow God to grow you into the person He created you to be. I can’t promise you when He will bring your husband into your life or if it’s even His will that you have one. All I can promise you is that God has an amazing plan for your life and it doesn’t begin when you get married it began the day you are born and it will continue until He calls you home. Don’t waste your life waiting for a man to come into your life. Live and if God has a man who can compliment your life than you will know who that man is when the time is right.

    Ten years may seem like a long time but to me it’s been worth every moment of serving God and seeing where He is going to bring me next. Every season I’ve grown, I’ve learned and I’ve become better. I would wait forever if it meant that I could give my husband the joy of knowing that no matter who tried to come into my life, my love and heart was only ever for him.
    I really hope this has encouraged any of my single Woman of God women out there. Never forget how valuable you are to God, He loves you and He has a plan.

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  • The Power of Choices

    A few weeks ago I was on my break at work listening to worship music and praying. While I was worshiping I felt God showing me the power of choice. While I was worshiping God said to me “I gave my own Son a choice. What makes you think I wouldn’t give you one too?”
    What God was saying to me was that when Jesus was in the garden of Gethesemane Jesus had a choice: a choice to go to the cross, suffering a pain and punishment like no man had experienced before for the redemption of all mankind or to walk away from the punishment He didn’t deserve. Jesus chose to go to the cross and in three days He rose again redeeming all of mankind. From this part of what God was showing me, He expounded. God showed me how Lucifer was given a choice. Lucifer was head of all of the worship in Heaven until one day he decided that he wanted to try to exalt himself above God. God gave Lucifer a choice and He gave the angels an opportunity to choose. 1/3 of the angels went with Lucifer. Now Lucifer is known as Satan, the enemy of man, but because of Jesus’ choice to go to the cross Satan is also known as defeated.
    So if God allowed Jesus to choose and He allowed Lucifer to choose what makes us think that He won’t allow us to choose.

    People get angry at God because bad things happen, the same people that say they are mad that God allows bad things say they don’t want to serve Him because He doesn’t give you a choice, He doesn’t let you do what you want to do. It’s like no matter what God were to do they wouldn’t be happy. If He allows man to choose bad things can and will happen if man is not in God when making the decision, but if He were to not give them a choice than they would be mad.

    Here is the thing: God gives everyone a choice but God also gives us the better option and warns us what will happen if we don’t choose correctly. In man having a choice it leaves us open to make the wrong choices. Because of our fallen nature our ability to see is clouded. Adam and Eve had a choice in the garden and they chose wrong. God gave them a choice: life or death, the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, or to live in the garden walking with God. Adam and Eve forfeited the garden for one piece of fruit.
    Although everything fell there is something that didn’t change in the garden and that is the power of a man’s choice. Man still has a choice and man’s choices can still make a huge impact but our fallen nature allows us to choose incorrectly. Satan clouds our judgement making our ability to see the right choices clouded. Jesus is the only one Who can redeem our choices and help us see the right things to do. It is through Jesus man’s decision making is redeemed.

    Every choice that you make impacts everyone around you, not just yourself. Lucifer chose hell, Adam and Eve chose to listen to the serpent causing all of mankind to live under the curse, Jesus chose the cross and redemption for all mankind. If God gave each and every one of them a choice whether it be good or bad what makes us think we are exempt. Our choices are powerful, they can change everything. Every choice impacts more than just you. Never forget that there is great power in your choices.

    God allows all to choose. God knows true love is chosen not forced. So you can choose not to serve Him but in doing so you open yourself up to the consequences that go along with not doing so and that means bad things will come out of it. In God’s Word it says that the penalty of sin is death. So if you choose not to serve God you will be headed straight towards that penalty. Ultimately serving God is your choice but you have to ask yourself if you want to reap the consequences of not choosing Him. God has His promises written in His Word for those who follow Him. God will uphold His people those who have chosen Him. The enemy is a lie and he has been deceiving people since the garden but God’s Words are true. When making decisions it is important to seek God. Every being in existence has a choice make sure you make the right ones.

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  • The Men and Women of Scripture

    I think people are under the common misconception that the people in Scripture are extraordinary people who are much greater than they are. That for the people of Scripture greatness and perfection was the core of who they were. I’m here to tell you that anyone under that assumption couldn’t be more wrong. With the exception of Jesus Christ no one in Scripture was any better or any holier human beings than you and I.

    The people of the Bible were just as messed up and dysfunctional as the rest of us. Jacob was a deceiver, David was an adulterer, Moses was a murderer, and Solomon was the wisest fool on the earth, Jonah acted as a child in regards to being sent to Nineveh, Paul (formerly known as Saul) had been a vengeful man killing Christians everywhere he went, even people like John the Baptist and Mary were only human. All of these people despite their different mess ups and struggles all have something in common and that is that God chose to use them for His perfect will anyway.

    That is why we serve God is it not? None of us are worthy to be a part of God’s perfect and beautiful will and yet He lets us be a part of it. God still uses His people to bring about His will. That is how powerful our God is, He can take broken things and make something beautiful out of it. God takes brokenness, He takes all the pieces and makes a beautiful mosaic out of it, and He makes it one big picture again. That is what we see in the Scriptures. We see people who are broken, people who are messed up, people who are struggling being picked up and the broken pieces of their lives being put together to create the family line that would bring Jesus into the world so that we could be redeemed. I am glad that God didn’t wait around for perfect people to bring about His will, because if that were the case Jesus wouldn’t have come because the family line wouldn’t have been set up and we would not be redeemed. God works in spite of our human frailty and that is the true Testament of Who He is. Scripture says that while we were still sinners Christ died for us. Nothing can stop God’s will not satan and not us. There was no man in Scripture that could stand in God’s way. Just as Pharaoh tried to kill Moses Herod tried to kill Jesus and God didn’t allow either one to happen.

    The Scriptures are an account of all that God has done and it is an account of what He still can and will do. We are no different than the people of the Bible. The Bible is a reminder that God can use messed up crazy sinners like you and me to do great and mighty things. Not because of who we are but because of Who He is. This is why as believers we have accepted Jesus as our Lord and Saviour we recognize our sin and human frailty. We realize that we need our Saviour because on our own we are wicked and sinful people but through the precious blood of Jesus we are redeemed. It is in our weakness that God is glorified because it is here His strength is made known.

    So the next time that you are reading the Scriptures and you feel like God can’t use you because you are not good enough, not special enough, not worthy remember that despite the odds God will prevail, that imperfect people can be used as vessels to bring about God’s perfect will and that greatness is not for us to obtain. If greatness is what we wish to obtain for ourselves than we have missed it. Greatness is for God and by God always, because greatness is too much a burden for us to bear but God can carry it because He is great. Let God be great and let us be humble. God deserves the glory now and forever for all that he has done and all that He will do but most importantly because of Who He is.

    - Christine Sawyer

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  • The Little Things

    The little things are most often the best things in life. Laughter with friends and family, getting a card in the mail unexpectedly, a smile from a friend, witnessing a random act of kindness from a stranger, watching the sunrise and set, finding a french fry at the bottom of the McDonald’s bag when you thought you had eaten them all, getting a parking spot close to the store when it’s raining, reminiscing about a time long since past because you found something while cleaning that brought back the memory, reading a good book, taking a walk on a spring day, having your favorite song come on the radio while driving in the car, having a memorable conversation and the list goes on and on. Yes it is the little things, the small blessings that make up the story of our lives. Sure we have the monumental moments: graduations, weddings, new jobs, birthdays, promotions, etc. but so often the little things get overlooked and yet they shouldn’t because these are the things that make life beautiful. Every moment both big and small make up your life. These small moments are like God’s love notes to His children. Reminding us that He cares very much of the details and of us. Take some time to reflect on the little moments of your life. You just might be surprised just how big those moments really were.
    – Christine Sawyer

    “It has long been an axiom of mine that the little things are infinitely the most important.” – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

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  • No Man Can Serve Two Masters

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    So I recently took a 31 day break from all social media. On October 3rd I felt like God had laid on my heart that I needed to fast and take some time to pray and seek Him. At the time I was spending way more time on social media than necessary and there were things in my life I needed to surrender and things I needed to learn. There were things God was trying to show me that I wasn’t seeing because I didn’t “have time” to spend listening to Him, so on October 4th I started my 31 day fast as instructed by the Lord.

    I’m not going to lie the first two weeks were a bit of a struggle. I would wonder if anyone messaged me or tagged me in something, if someone posted a photo I should see. It proved very tempting to pick up my phone to check any form of social media. Even though it was tempting I prayed through and slowly started to see how much it was ruling my life. I remember when I hit the middle of the second week. I was praying and during my time of prayer I heard God speak to my heart and say “Christine, no man can serve two masters” so I looked up where in Scripture that verse was. In the Scripture Jesus was referring to money but what masters our lives can be anything. I knew right then and there what God was saying to me. I knew what things in my life had to change. It explained what the fast was even for. There were things that needed to break in my life and in order for that to happen I had to surrender any form of self and allow God to help me bring it in to submission. How could I say that I was serving God if I spent more time on social media than I did with Him? How could I say that I was a servant of God when the thing mastering my life was social media? It was plain as day to me that if I wanted to have what God wanted for me I had to let go of what I thought was important and replace it with what He said was important.

    I spent 31 days praying to God and in that time I learned how to pray in more depth, I learned how to pray about others and I also learned how to pray about myself. I learned there are different kinds of prayer. It was very very freeing to do this. The longer I was away from social media the more free I felt. My mind wasn’t always somewhere else, my prayer life and spiritual life were growing. I was becoming more communicative with God, my family and my friends. I started doing things I hadn’t done in a long time because I had forgotten that I loved doing them so much. I watched movies I had been meaning to see, I read books I had meant to read, I prayed prayers that were long overdue, I spent more uninterrupted time with my family and with my friends. I grew in my relationship with God, I grew in my relationship with my family members and I grew in my friendships.
    I also got to analyze things in my life I was blind to because I was living in my phone.

    Ultimately the internet is a place many go to escape their lives, a place they can bend reality and make something as simple as getting coffee seem like the most amazing experience in the world when it really wasn’t. I highly recommend to any follower of Jesus who has neglected their time with God to really take a step back from social media and spend some time with Him. You will learn as I did to see the beauty in the reality of your life. There may be some not so beautiful parts too but God will show you how it all blends together to make a beautiful painting that is your life. Go out and live your life, you only get one and wasting it on social media is not what you want to do. Trust me, you will feel more refreshed and have more fun going out and living. God showed me so much about mine and I was very blessed by it all.
    Remember no man can serve two masters so please choose wisely.
    – Christine Sawyer
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  • Ruth Didn’t Sit Around Waiting For A Man

    Ruth Didn’t Sit Around Waiting For A Man
    Over the past week I have felt led to talk about Ruth. A lot of young ladies are under the misconception that Ruth sat around waiting for Boaz to come and rescue her from her life. Many young women look to Ruth and Boaz as the ideal for what they want their love story to be like. If you ask a single woman “Is there anyone special in your life?” they will often reply “No, I’m still waiting for my Boaz.” This is often said with a twinge of longing and a melancholy sigh. I hate to be the bearer of bad news but Ruth was not “Waiting for her Boaz.” What do I mean by that? What I mean is, Ruth was working and she was living her life. Ruth wasn’t looking for a man when she ran into Boaz, she was living her life and trying to build a life. Boaz was a blessing given to her by God for her faithfulness to Him and to Naomi.

    Ruth’s Backstory
    Ruth was a Moabite woman living in Moab with her Jewish husband and in laws. Ruth’s husband, father in law, and brother in law all passed away at the same time due to illness leaving Ruth, her mother in law Naomi, and her sister in law without husbands. Naomi decided to return home and she told her daughter in laws to stay in Moab so that they may find husbands and remarry as Jews and Moabites typically did not marry nor did they like each other. There was nothing in Naomi’s home land (Bethlehem) for Ruth but she chose to go with her mother in law anyway. Choosing to abandon her god’s and her home land to serve Jehovah and help her mother in law Ruth went to Bethlehem with Naomi.

    An unmarried woman had a hard time earning a living in those times. Marriage was the ideal situation for a woman in those days, but Ruth didn’t go for ideal she went with faithfulness and obedience to God and Naomi. Ruth had to find a way to provide for herself and Naomi. Ruth did so as we see in Ruth 2 that Ruth had gone to glean in the fields to provide for herself and Naomi. The field she happened upon was that of Boaz. Boaz was a relative of Naomi’s on her husband’s side. Ruth worked hard a diligently most likely looking a mess with her hair all disheveled, dirt all over her skin and clothes, dirt underneath her fingernails, she was probably even a bit sweaty. Yet as she was working Boaz noticed her and inquired about her. Boaz liked what he heard and what he saw. A woman who abandoned all that was familiar and stayed faithful to her mother in law and to God. Working hard to provide a life for them both. Boaz found that insanely attractive and he showed Ruth favor. The key part of this is Boaz took notice of Ruth while she was working, while she was living her life, while she was focusing on the task at hand. While she was trusting God and being faithful. Ruth’s character and heart is what brought her favor in Boaz’s eyes. He admired her character, her faithfulness to her mother in law, her heart, her courage and her work ethic.
    Now that we’ve established Ruth and what Boaz found attractive about her we need to talk about how this applies to you. Just like Ruth as a Woman of God you must live your life abandoning what is comfortable to you and being faithful to God, seeking God’s will, allowing Him to help you provide for a household like a Proverbs 31 woman, allowing Him to build your character. A godly man seeking a godly wife wants a woman of great character who can take care of a home, someone he can build his life with, he can build a home with and raise a family with, and someone he can be proud to call his wife. Ruth found favor in Boaz’s sight because she proved by her character and work ethic that she could do those things and Boaz was highly attracted to her. A man doesn’t want an incapable woman for his wife.

    A man wants a help mate, not a helpless mate. A man wants someone who can assist him on this crazy journey called life. A life of marriage takes years of preparation that starts long before a wedding is even remotely close. Being married is hard work and a godly man needs a godly woman strong enough to handle that. My advice to all single women out there is: Don’t put your life on hold “waiting for your Boaz.” Make a life for yourself. Pursue a relationship with God and seek His will for your life, set goals, dream dreams, find out where and what god wants you to do, be faithful and grow spiritually and emotionally, work hard and learn to take care of a household, become the godly woman God created you to be. Go where He leads you to go and who knows? Maybe while you’re busy working you’ll find yourself in “Boaz’s field.” And if you’ve faithfully done what God has asked of you until that day than you will have a life your Boaz will be honored to be a part of and you’ll be a wife he is proud to have a part of his. Remember nothing is more attractive to a godly man than a godly woman who reflects Proverbs 31. Make sure that’s what you are when you finally meet him. Trust me when I say on this ending note that you will have a better idea of who you want to spend the rest of your life with when you already know who you are to be. You can only know that when you seek God because it is there you will find yourself.
    - Christine Sawyer
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  • Valor

    Man seldom recognizes the need for adversity. Few have eyes to see its worth. For out of the ashes of adversity arises a man of valor. The noblest of men, putting forth a valiant effort to achieve great deeds. Boldly he presses on to obtain all he was once told he could not. A man tested by fire, wearing his scars like a badge of honor. It is for the betterment of mankind he deems his struggles worth it. It is his recognition of this that makes him great. Humility graces his head like a crown, radiant as the sun. For what good is it for a man to succeed if he is not made a better man than yesterday? And what good is it for a man’s perception of himself to be clouded by undeserved merits? No, it is a man’s character that outweighs them all. A man is only made great by the measure of his character, and adversity is the first stepping stone because it is here a man decides where he will go.

    - Christine Sawyer

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  • The Ten Plagues and Their Meaning

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    Here is a short piece to an article I’ve been studying and working on for awhile but haven’t gotten to fully write about too much further than a post I did a few years ago.
    *Please note* I have only studied what I could find and Egyptian gods are extensive so this is only in part this study. I could only go by what I could find and dig up.

    In the Bible in the book of Exodus it talks about the plagues of Egypt where God strikes Egypt with ten plagues. At one point in my life I was told that there is a significance to each plague. This made me want to study further to see what each plague represented. The research I did brought me to the beginning when Moses and Aaron first go before Pharaoh. God told Moses before him (Moses) and Aaron went to Pharaoh that when Pharaoh asks them to perform a miracle that Aaron is to throw down the staff and it would become a snake, some translations say a serpent. I wanted to know why God would turn the staff into a serpent. As we know the serpent is a cursed creature in scripture and God’s people were not to be apart of it. This is why I wanted to know the significance of this first sign to Pharaoh in Exodus. In Egypt the serpent was a big part of their gods. Pharaoh is often depicted with a cobra around his headpiece. The serpent or cobra was associated with the goddess wadjet who was supposed to be the protector of the southern region of Egypt as well as the protector of the Nile. Wadjet was considered the serpent goddess. There are other “serpent goddesses” in Egyptian mythology but wadjet is supposedly one of the earliest to mention. The headpiece with the cobra Pharaoh wore is known as the uraeus and was worn by Pharaoh as a symbol of protection over Pharaoh and over Egypt and the Nile by wadjet. It was also believed that Pharaoh was a manifestation of the sun god Ra and that when Pharaoh wore the uraeus Ra would protect the Egyptians by spitting fire on their enemies through the eyes of the uraeus. I’m sure already a few plagues have come to mind. Some of the symbolism of the plagues have already started to be shown just from this little bit.
    Getting back the initial point I was getting to. The reason why God turned Aaron’s staff into a serpent was a sign to Pharaoh that wadjet and Pharaoh himself (Egyptians considered Pharaoh a god as well) were not gods but that He (Jehovah) is God. So when Aaron threw the staff on the ground it turned into a serpent. Pharaoh’s magicians also turned their staffs into serpents but Aaron’s serpent swallowed the magician’s serpents up. This was a symbol and sign to Pharaoh that wadjet was not going to be able to protect him from what was coming and that Egypt was subject to God’s hands not wadjet’s, not ra’s, not pharoah’s, not any other Egyptian god’s. Every Egyptian false god was about to get torn down one by one. It was the start to ten plagues that were going to prove to the Egyptian people that Jehovah is God, the only God and He is God of all. Another sign to Pharaoh was when he asked who sent Moses and the reply to him was “I Am sent me.” Meaning I Am God. This was the message to Pharaoh. In exodus 7:5 says “And the Egyptians will know that I am Lord when I stretch out my hand against Egypt and bring the Israelites out of it.” This wasn’t just about setting the Israelites free, it was also about showing one of the strongest regions at that time who was God. This has been part one of a writing I had started.

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  • Christina Grimmie

    June 10th made one year since Christina Grimmie passed away. Her passing was a tragedy and I’ll never forget when I found out what had happened. I met Christina on March 8th 2016 at a Rachel Platten concert. After the show Christina was signing autographs with her brother Marcus. I had gotten a ride to the concert and my ride was circling outside until I came out to get picked up because the show was in the city so there was no parking. I remember looking at the long line and looking at the merch table with Christina’s signature bass and treble clef sign. I thought to myself, I’ll meet her when she comes back around on tour. I finally decided that this was a great opportunity to meet her so I called my ride and asked them to circle around. They were so kind as to do so. I got in line and before I knew it, it was my turn to meet Christina. Christina was so nice to me and made me feel more like a friend than a fan. I remember after meeting her as I walked away I thought to myself “I’m definitely going to see her show when she comes back around on tour.” A few short months later Christina Grimmie was murdered at her concert in Florida while signing autographs. I remember when I found out, I didn’t believe it. It almost didn’t seem real. The same girl whom I had met and spoke to and took a picture with was gone. I remember when it hit me that it was real, I cried. I cried at the thought of a young girl with a whole life ahead of her having been taken home way too soon. Christina’s passing was tragic, she had so much life to live and sadly at the age of 22 was taken. I remember thinking back to what I had thought when I was debating meeting her, that I would meet her next time. It hit me that if I hadn’t met her when I did there wouldn’t have been a next time. It showed me how fragile and valuable life is and how tomorrow is not guaranteed. We never know what is going to happen. We must live in such a way that no matter what happens the ones we love know we love them and the ones who mean the most are shown. Christina left a legacy that will not be forgotten.
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  • My thoughts On Singleness in a Relationship Obsessed World

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    As a single at 25 years of age I’ve spent years hearing people say things like “why are you still single?” “That person would be great for you” “oh, you’ll find the right one someday” and the list of quotes goes on. So these are my thoughts on being single in a relationship obsessed society. While a relationship can be a blessing being single is very much a blessing too. It’s something that would be recognized as such and a whole lot easier if society didn’t teach relationship=happiness and pressure singles to “find somebody”. This causes singles to run out and try to find anybody who is willing to date them in an attempt to attain this happiness and get out from the judgemental “why are you still single” questions. The problem is a relationship doesn’t equal happiness. I would say a relationship=frustration and sorrow. The real equation would be a relationship with the right person = joy, laughter, sorrow, tears and everything in between. The key word is the Right person. The right person will compliment you not complete you and if happiness is what you are seeking and it’s something you don’t already have than you most likely think a significant other will complete you. The only one who can complete you is God and without Him this completion you seek will never be obtained. Another person can’t complete you, only God can do that. If you find you feel an empty place in your heart and you’ve tried to fill it with other things finding no peace or joy than you need to give your life to Jesus. You won’t regret it and He will heal your heart and bring you more joy than you can imagine. Until you allow God to change your heart and mind you will always be searching for fulfillment in the wrong things. Relationships being one of those things most likely. Singleness is a time to be celebrated, there is so much to be thankful for, so much time to grow and learn, to travel and make big decision, to seek God and find out who you are in Him, to serve God and bring the world to cometo know Him. Maybe one day He will bless you with a significant other to share your life with but until then seek God and rejoice in your time of singleness. There’s so much to be thankful for and to rejoice over. Consider my advice it doesn’t come without lesson on my part. After years of waiting for “Mr. right” I’ve come to the conclusion that God is the only one who can complete me and I will no longer put my life on hold for “Mr. Right” to show up (after all there’s so much life to live why waste it) if he comes he comes and if not I’ll have lived a life not missing or on what God has for me. I hope this article has helped some of my fellow single people out there. Live your life, serve God and if He has someone for you they will be in your life when He says it’s time, not before, so don’t try and force it.

    Love and God bless,

    Christine Sawyer

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