This is a first for christinesawyer.net but I thought I’d take a moment to post an article that is more of a journal entry than an actual article. The past few weeks have been very crazy but I have been trusting God to take care of the things I don’t understand. In the past two weeks I have had to seek God for an answer to a life decision that I was unsure of, I’ve been looking for a car, trying to get through each day of work as it comes, I’ve been working on two separate writing projects and I’ve been trying to split my time equally amongst my various obligations. Overall at 24 years old the realities of being an adult have been hitting hard this year and I was worried it would be too stressful for me but God has been faithful to me the whole time keeping me afloat and giving me perspective. I’ve been learning to trust Him with everything, the big, the small and everything in between. While on twitter one day I read a tweet that said “Allow God to reveal and show Himself to be faithful” and over the past few weeks I’ve been trying to seek God and trust His will, will be done in my life. This is how it went:
As I prayed for the answer to that big life decision awaiting an answer for over a week (that I felt like I already knew what the answer would be but wanted to be patient and wait for confirmation) God reminded me that He was listening and sent the confirmation through a family friend who called me up out of nowhere to tell me something they felt God wanted me to know. This phone call confirmed what I felt God wanted me to do in regards to this decision and thus I received my confirmation. It also confirmed the season I felt God was leading me to. I had a peace about the decision and I’m grateful to God for keeping His promise from Matthew 7:7 when Jesus said “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” I sought the Lord and He answered me. It took a while but in the waiting He taught me the importance of patience and faith, that you need both to serve God.
Since then I have been in search of a car and seem to be coming up with dead ends everywhere I turn. I was getting discouraged because I felt that I couldn’t afford anything I was finding and anything I could afford had some problems with the gears or the transmission etc. I was starting to feel a bit hopeless, then I talked to a friend and he reminded me that God is faithful. I laid in bed one night and said to God “If You want me to have a car You’re going to have to provide for me because I can’t do this on what I’m making working right now.” A few days later I received my yearly review at work. Not only did I get a really good review but I received a more than generous raise. While I still haven’t found a car in my searching I truly believe that God will provide a car when the time is right. Not a crazy expensive car but a modest one that will get me back and forth to work. God is a provider so when He says it’s time for me to have one He will provide it. I’m not going to sweat it but I’m going to trust. God will take care of me. While for a few days I was discouraged about the outcome of my search, I realize that God knows what I need and when I need it and so I don’t need to force what God has not blessed. I will keep looking and keep praying and one day I will have my own car.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.”
The next part probably won’t seem like it fits in this post but it will. I was on twitter after the initial tweet about God showing Himself to be faithful and I saw a tweet by a very well known youtube singer/songwriter that some of you may know as Tyler Ward. (*I do not know Tyler Ward personally nor is he affiliated with this page) Tyler had posed the question “If you could know only one thing about your future, what would you choose to know? OR…would you prefer not to know?” I generally don’t tweet people who are popular on twitter because I know they are busy and don’t have time to respond but Tyler seems like someone who tries to acknowledge his fans to the best of his abilities. So I posted response to his tweet saying “as cool as it’d be to know about the future I think there is a beauty in the not knowing because that’s where faith comes in.” A few hours later I received a response from Tyler Ward. It was short and as I mentioned earlier Tyler and I do not know each other but it was an answer. I don’t know the reason why Tyler asked that question on twitter but what I do know and what he may not have realized when asking this question was that his question posed was the answer to my own questions. That we may not always know what’s going to happen in our lives whether it be good or bad the beauty of the not knowing is in the fact that God does and that’s where faith comes in. It got me thinking about the beauty of faith and the not knowing. It says in Hebrews 11:1 “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Without hope we can not have faith, the two work hand in hand. The not knowing teaches us to trust God and have hope in Him and when we have that we have faith. While things don’t always go the way we’d like them to we can rest in knowing that God is indeed faithful and God is indeed looking out for us and taking care of us.
God over the past few weeks has shown Himself to be faithful even though things didn’t completely work out the way I had thought they would. As I’ve trusted God the past few weeks He has proven Himself faithful just as the twitter page had encouraged me to trust. The more I’ve trusted, the more I’ve sought, the more I’ve trusted, the more that He has inspired me to write and to extend myself in other areas of my life. I looked for a car, talked to dealers and inquired about a loan. I didn’t get a car but I learned a lot about myself and I grew a little bit more as a person. All these things that made me nervous and a bit timid before I have pursued. I received confirmation from God through a family friend, encouragement from another friend and extended myself on twitter and received an answer. On this end note God is faithful and He knows what He’s doing. I’m grateful for the past few weeks because God used all different situations to teach me a lot. Sometimes we have to fight to remember what we already know and over the past few weeks God has shown Himself to me and has reminded me of those things through many different circumstances and people. It’s amazing how God speaks to us if we would only listen. So the next time you feel hopeless or are lacking in faith remember, God is always faithful: He keeps His promises to those who serve and seek Him, if you seek God with all of your heart you will find God (Jeremiah 29:13) and God speaks to us all differently and it’s important to never forget to listen when asking for the answers: you never know what, when where and through whom He will speak.
Love and God Bless,
Oh and this was the tweet I was talking about: *Note Tyler Ward and myself do not know each other personally and Tyler Ward is not affiliated with this page.